Broken-Hearted

I saw him.
I shouted and screamed,
He reasoned and pleaded.
And before I knew what had happened,
I was in tears,
And he was gone.

I'm alone now,
And I'm running up the stairs two at a time,
Ignoring the echoes of my name behind me.
Slamming the door,
Kicking off Shoes,
Peeling off the jacket,
And throwing it to the wall.
I stare where it collided,
The wall and the garment.
A picture of us,
Cracked down the middle.

I grab a pencil from the table,
And let loose.

Everything I feel,
All the loss, sorrow, anger,
Frustration.
Regret.
It all goes down in an imitation of the happiness we had.

With a break right in the heart of the symbol,
The glass cracked and spiked.

I transfer it,
Using my soul,
As an intact peice.
And the outcome?
Because even though he hurt me,
I'll find it in me to forgive him.
I need him back.

A spirit's creativity,
Is just love,
Incarnated.

Guilt Of Life

Broken without breath
Shattered without love
Your Warmth feels like guilt to me
Guilt of life
Without the passion in your eyes
I can only see the waves of fear
Without the break of Harmony
The Music of hurt plays in your smile
With
The Tremble in your touch
I fear you more than Life
Russian Roulette is a
Danger to play with a Card
so soft like you....
If i was so afraid the outcome
I would have never of Played
Now your gone and you are
My Guilt of Life

You

It's your fault I'm left here in the rain,
You left me in so much pain.
I thought that between us there was something,
But you've made it clear now; to you I'm nothing.
You're no doubt my greatest error
And all this time I sensed not even a tremor
Of how your eyes used to hypnotise
But behind the surface there are only lies
I thought you and I were meant to be
I thought that it was destiny.
Now, I know that I was wrong
You never wrote that poem, sung that song
I deserve better than you
You're unaware of how well I can do
You played me - like a little game
You put me through a storm of shame
So now I've felt what heart ache is like,
And that true love is yet to strike.

Past, Present, Future

 Past
things used to be so happy
with love cheer and joy
then things went terribly wrong
the evil sent death and destruction
the beatiful kingdom is gone
she died to save us
now all is forgotten
we must remember


Present
we are finally saved
but we have forgotten
we meet again
and we remember
things are new and different
but not bad
filled with love we rebuild
our beautiful kingdom


Future
now we remember
our lovely memories
from so long ago
maybe an eternity
we were saved
now its our turn to protect
things will soon be almost the same
but never will they be exactly
we are filled with love
but also sorrow

Life

Soaring In The Wind
one step
left foot right foot
again and again
over and over
one step
left foot right foot
again and again
over and over
but one day
break the flow
go another way
take another path
live another life
take a risk
have some fun
before the next day comes around
with that same pattern
one step
left foot right foot
again and again
over and over
my life is worth more than this
yet i swear the ground i walk on gets deeper every day.
ill go mad if i live another day
with that cursed patern of everyday life
so i break the routine
give life a reason
give life happyness
and joy
and love
and never again
be just a clone
but a lively spirit
soaring in the wind

He Said, He Loved Me

My mind is going crazy
It just cant seem to stop
He said he really loved me
But yet the words were burned

He said he really loved me
What a lier he is to me
I cant believe those
second chances I gave
him might only been for me

The tears are coming now
They just cant seem to stop
But yet I know its ok
Cause he was just a jerk

Those other girls can have him
They will feel my pain soon too
Cause we are not just woman
We have true hearts too

I am stronger now
Because of what he did to me
He was just a jerk
And I am over him

Good men don't lie to you
They always tell the truth
This guy I feel in love with
Thought loved me

I'm not mad
I'm not sad
I'm just staying strong
I am so over him
He is so gone!

This man I feel in love with
He said he loved me so
But I burned those words in the ash tray
Because I am staying strong

My Heart

He ran to me
Love in his eyes
He wanted me
He needed me
He loved me

Then, He left me

Alone, there i was

The happiness faded

Cold and hallow

All alone
There you were

You saw me
And i saw you

You missed me
And i missed you

You Tried to take me back
But i declined
And thats okay
Finally I'm Over you and here you come again

Don't mess with my heart
Please
Its fragile

LOVE

I thought I knew what love was
That feeling
That feeling that you have for someone
You care about him
He cares about you

I thought I knew
How he felt about me
But he never actually loved me
We talked
We laughed
But at the end
It wasn’t the same

Now I found him
The guy I deserve
The guy for me

We have that connection
The connection that you feel
When you love and they love back

I will always love him
And he will always love me

But at the end
I woke up
From that dream that I have
The dream that I love
When it’s about you and me

Lie To Me

Say you’re sorry
When I cry
Say you’ll help me
When I try
Say you’ll be my sight
When I can’t see
Lie to me

Kiss my bruises heart and
Take the blame
Look regretful
Look ashamed!
Say you’ll fix me
When I bleed!
Lie to me!

Say you’ll stop
Causing me pain
Tell me how you
Cry in shame!
Promise that you’ll
Leave me be
Lie to me!

Say you love me
More each day
Say you want me
Here to stay
But you’ll let go
And set me free

Lie to me

The Sky

How I imagine I could gracefully fly
So delicately in the endless blue sky

To be able to see Spain, England or France
Have the sky as my own floor of dance

To feel like you could reach the heavens above the cloud
Just to feel so wonderfully free and so very proud

Just singing and swaying with the breeze that I play
Day after day after glorious day

But I'm tacked to the ground for all of my life
To envy the birds which causes much strife

I try and I try with so much possible might
but I can't grow the wings to let me take flight

Harder and harder how I imagine I could fly
My heart and mind belong in that sky

But the form that they're in doesn't have wings
I guess it's just one of those difficult things

How I imagine I could gracefully fly
So delicatly in the endless blue sky

Desire

Your sharp eyes contrast against your hard frame
Your chocolate skin with your , round cheeks
Makes you appear quite fragile
Vulnerable, even, though I know
The mind that lies beneath is stronger
Than anything I’ve ever encountered
Before, and that’s what makes you perfect

I picture my lips dancing across your heart
ever so gracefully through each layer
Of pain, the beat would be exquisite
If only, if only I could have you
If I could simply pierce that pretty brain of yours
Learn your breaking points and find what makes you tick
It would be truly magnificent

You are my ultimate challenge
Seeing through me with your intuition
Calculating my every move and motivation
With your intellect, giving me a whiplash
As your beautiful wit rolls off your sharp tongue
To break you would be a heavenly dream

I see you through the translucent curtains
Of your bedroom window, Washing your soft face
Out of your face and sighing into the empty air
You do not see me, yet I am here
Like a tiger in the forest
Preparing to pounce, so that I
May finally take you as my prey

More Than A Friend

We're only friends,
but at times I wish we were more.

No one has ever made me feel as special as you do.
Why can't we be more than friends?

You know what I'm really like and you love me still the same.
Why can't we be more than friends?

You make me laugh when I want to die.
Why can't we be more than friends?

A smile from you is all it takes to make my day.
Why can't we be more than friends?

The sound of your voice makes my heart jump for joy.
Why can't we be more than friends?

The slightest touch from you makes me want you even more.
Why can't we be more than friends?

When you laugh it makes my heart flood with happiness.
Why can't we be more than friends?

You are all I need in life.
Why can't we be more than friends.

The Way You Love Me

Gentle, caring, and sweet.
All these things you are to me.
My heart, throbbing in my chest.
You are the very best.
Always on my mind.
This love makes me blind.
You are all I see.
I need you to live.
Pictures of you flashing through my head.
Without you I would be dead.
When I'm not with you I grieve.
Please don't ever leave.

Police pepper spray an 8 yr old

Un Happy Meals

Everybody knows that when it comes to fast food the only thing children want is the toy.  So why is it that after so many years, fast food chains are looking to stop providing toys with the happy meal? What I don't understand is how people can say that the toys are parents reasons for purchasing these meals. I feel as though if a parent wants to buy their kid a happy meal then so be it. OK they are not the best choices for children,yet the parents are entitled to buy them if they want. What pisses me off is the fact that people are willing to punish children because they do not agree with parents choices. Honestly, what does it matter if a child gets a cheeseburger happy meal with juice instead of chicken nuggets with milk. Why should the kid who gets chicken nuggets be the only one to get a toy with his or her meal?  It annoys me because it is not fair to these children and parents should not be forced into anything.

Are you kidding me?

Looking good while paying less

 This weekend the Jewish Relief Agency will be holding its second warehouse clothing sale on Sunday, April 3, 2011. This agency will be providing merchandise from brands such as  Abercrombie, Lacoste and Hollister for $.50. This is a great bargain because it allows people on budgets to purchase top of the line clothing. This is also a great idea because it helps the agency to raise money for its charity.
The organization's first sale, back in October, raised$10,000 for the food distribution charity and provided bargains for more than 1,000 shoppers.  This is definately the place parents and teens should go to rack up for the spring and summer. After all who wouldn't like to save some money and look good.

Snow in April

It bugs me to write about snow when it has been spring for weeks already. Not as if people don't have enough going on, it has to snow. I really cannot believe mother nature is being such a bitch to us right now. This is supposed to be the time of year where flowers start blooming but instead it wants to snow. There is only so much of this weather a person can take, and quite frankly I have reached my breaking point. Hopefully this has been the last wear hear of snow for awhile because after this past winter I am pretty sure no one wants to see snow for a long time.

Top 60 ghetto names

A friend of mine told me to check out this video on YouTube. Once I saw it I could not believe some of the names these guys came up with. What makes this situation worst is that I know a couple of people with those names.  This was sort of funny because people actually give their children names like these. But then the parents are mad if someone cannot pronounce the child's name like what the hell are you kidding me. I don't know what the heck is wrong with people like f.y.i if the name has too many syllables or letters then nine times out of ten, the name is ghetto.

Me myself and I

I CANT BELIVE I BELIEVED
EVERYTHING WE HAD WOULD LAST
SO YOUNG AND NAIVE FOR ME TO THINK
SHE WAS FROM YOUR PAST
SILLY OF ME TO DREAM OF
ONE DAY HAVING YOUR KIDS
LOVE IS SO BLIND
IT FEELS RIGHT WHEN ITS WRONG

I CANT BELIEVE I FELL FOR YOUR SCHEMES
I'M SMARTER THAN THAT
SO DUMB AND NAIVE TO BELIEVE THAT
WITH ME YOU'RE A CHANGED MAN
FOOLISH OF ME TO COMPETE
WHEN YOU CHEAT WITH LOOSE WOMEN
IT TOOK ME SOME TIME BUT NOW I'VE MOVED ON, BECAUSE I REALIZED I GOT
ME, MYSELF AND I
THAT'S ALL I GOT IN THE END
THAT'S WHAT I FOUND OUT
AND IT AINT NO NEED TO CRY
I TOOK A VOW THAT FROM NOW ON
I'M GON'NA BE MY OWN BEST FRIEND
                           -Beyonce Knowles

Its ashame that many women believe that they need a man to feel complete. I was listening to this song on the radio and it dawned on me that more women should have the same attitude. We have so many women who stay in bad relationships because they fear the thought of being alone. I think that what women must realize is that at the end of the day you can only count on yourself....nobody else. Because I know that I can only rely on me, myself and I.